Inspired by a song I accidentally heard today..
I almost called today
To say I was sorry
But I didn’t have the nerve to,
Or maybe it was pride.
I can’t tell the difference these days.
I know I should have called earlier,
But there were too many barriers-
Your mother, our many differences,
The things we both said to each other that I know we didn’t mean.
It’s a lot to work through, isn’t it?
I hope you know I miss you.
I won’t admit it to your face, but I hope you can sense it- how empty my life is without you in it.
You used to know me so well, so I am sure you can imagine how much I do miss you.
Every time I use the Haatso-Dome route, I think of you and what could have been.
Do you remember we used to fantasize about living there?
The Indomie woman still asks of you.
I know I don’t have a right to ask, but do you still like your fufu hard?
Are you still scared of spiders? Do you still sleep in on Sundays?
I finally got my driver’s license. You should see me reverse!
Sometimes I hear you laughing in my mind’s ear;
It creeps up so suddenly on me that I can’t help but just freeze.
Last night I dreamt about you, probably because of the rain.
When I woke up, I thought about what we had,
And what could have been,
If I hadn’t messed it up.
I couldn’t help but think,